wow its been awhile.  i never thought in a million years id be on here again but then again.....here i aaaaaaammmm.  life has been crazy. unreal at times and i find myself slowing dying.  ive been waaay too stressed with work and skool cuz im actually trying to do something for myself this yr.  gosh i miss linus. so ya he would prob have to be the major change in my life. i miss everyone and him most of all. to the point i want to cry sometimes. linus is going to college and richie is with his new bf far away from here sadly.  i dont wanna grow up i decided. i wanna spend the rest of my life young.  bleh......but this yr as also had its positives.  im talking to old ppl i havent chilled with since like freshmen yr. how odd.  i ran into an old boi the other day which is was one ooooooddddd moment but made me realize how much i missed having him in my life, knowing how things never had an ending to begin with.  I MISS YOU LINUS! 

on a lighter note im actually going to england for sure this time! yaaaaay i leave decemember 26 thru jan 3.  im sooo excited but scared too.  i think im more sad in a way cuz linus wont b there.  we talked about this trip for a while now and it doesnt feel right without with him to share the moments.  but omg i cant wait!  i finally get to see matt!!! and its going to be wonderful.  i just hate the way love works. u always have to be so far away from the ppl u care about most.  and its always harder to work at those relationships to keep them alive. dont ppl ever get tired of it???  im not but still...soooo not fair.  oh man i love mr teddy. yuuup... I LOOOOOVE YOU!

this weekend is gonna kick ass.  i get to chillage with ben and sarah and i cant wait. its gonna b like old times when nothing mattered but parting and the bois.  3 cheers for 2morrow niiiiiight. HOOOORRRAAAAYYYY!  but i must leave you.  linus call me! ur coming tomorrow and i dont care if u dont wanna.  xxxx

~teena~

                                                     DELIA GORDORA FUNK
                                                 (April 19, 1959 - April 10, 2005)

i dedicate this to u mom.  i love you...always and forever.

A SONG FOR MAMA

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Mama. mama you know I love you
oh u know I love you
Mama, mama your're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like good to my soul

ive decided this will be my last entry.  looking back on the past has kinda made me sick of seeing how selfish i have been to her.  knowing that i finally made peace with the only women in my life that has done soooo much for me has made me realize that i need start living for once.  i dont even know what to say....where do i go from here?  im lost. but ill be thinking of u.  you were a great mother.  and im sorry for everything ive done.  i love you.  ill see you in heaven one day. bye.

~teena~

                                                      .........EDIT........

ME AND TROY ARE NOW GETTING MARRIED!!! THE DATE HASNT BEEN SET YET BUT...U ARE INVITED...MAKE SURE U RSVP THO! (i still love you matt u know that) LINUS...WILL YOU BE MY MAID OF HONOR??? NEWAYS CHER...CIARA...AND CHRISTINA WILL BE AT THE RECEPTION!!! HOLLA!!!...WE ARE THE NEW IT COUPLE HEHE.

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so basically spring break was kinda pt less. sadly i didnt get to go ne where.  but well...i guess i had fun.  i saw tons of mere bear so that was good.  i havent really spent a week with her since summer when we chilled like everyday.  i think i gained some weight over break tho. all i did was eat but it was nice.  i totally got to chill with kelli too and now  that was waaaay too long since ive seen her.  we wboth went to get our hair cut friday and dyed it.  i have bangs now and i guess its cute.  im still kinda getting used to it.  I LOVE LINUS....AND CHINA!!!! HOLLA TO CHINESE QUEER AS FOLK! 

gosh its offical...I MISS MATT.  it hasnt even been a week and i cant stop thinking about him.  i didnt even get an email before he left meeh for 2 weeks...tEaR.  if u read this
mr []D [] []V[] []D...know that i love you and i miss you more then ne thing.

and tear...troy is gone for a week.  having fun in LA with "hot bois". HOLLA AT YO GURL...FRIEND...she is missing you!

ne ways...HOLY POO ON MY SHOE...KEANE IS COMING AND IM TOTALLY EXCITED!!! IM SOOOOO GOING !!!!!! yay for me hehe. neways...here are some pics of spring break with linus and mere bear.  we had a lil visit to the fruitloop (the prostitution park) over break and took pics there lol.  here u go so enjoy!!!!

TROY, TEENA and LINUS at first friday...playing with the camera phone.

ummm i think we might be at bob evans???

aww its linus...and the bitch behind him (well u can kinda see her forehead) is the mean lady that would glare at meeh cuz the flash went off hehe.  i hope im like her when im old...

me...i had to take a pic im my england shirt...show my support for matt! hehe

SHOCKER!!!!!

linus looks sooo hot with a purse...and yes it is his lol.

me before i head off to work.

tEeNa!!!!

lol.  here is me at the prostitution park...trying to see if i can get home before linus and mere bear lol.

prostitution park again...

u better believe that linus paid 13 cents for meeh to get on my knees and smile like a dounut!!! HOLLA!!

awww its meeh and mere bear!!!

me and troy (boyfriend) at the planet cafe.

yUmMmMmMmY!!!

HOLLA AT YO BOY...FRIEND...AND...GURLFRIEND!!

ooo la la.  to bad hes gay! lol.  i wub you!

dRoP iT LiKe ItS hOtTtT!!!

MERE BEAR!!!

linus...the flower really brings out his eyes lol.

well thats all folks! oh and i almost forgot....HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERE BEAR!!!

~teena~

                                                 ::EDIT::

yay..teena totally landed herself a lil date with matty lol.  we will be going to an opera friday...dress up with matching outfits...and just look very very prettyful and hott!!! hehe.

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ok ok...so its official...ME AND TROY ARE FINALLY BOYFRIEND AND GURLFRIEND hehe...

so blah...its spring break and i cant even go ne where. this sucks ass.  to make it worse...troy is leaving meeh for a week and i never see him ne more cuz of his car but tomorrow....i shall pick him up!  and things dont get better since matt is leaving meeh for 2 weeks to go italy and france...poo on my shoe! oooo so yay i totally saw jake the other day when me and mere bear were up at shawnee mission park taking pics!!! wow i miss him soooooooo much.  we had so much fun back in the day with him and linus and everyone.  those were the days....only now its without drugs now! 

on the other hand...im totally happy with life...yay.  and i have a 2 wonderful boyfriends...mwah matt.  and im just a happy person!!! my diet is going good.  ive started working out once again.  i needa get my ass and tummy in shape before summer gets here and i end up in a bikini.  neways its time for teena to leave for work.  call meeh if yall wanna chill this weekend!

but heres a few pics before i go....

me and jake at shawnee mission park...how cute is he!!!

meeeee...ooo duckies!!!

i dont like this picture at all!

mere bear...u cant see her but the water looks very prettyful.

u cant see me either....but the water still looks prettyful....

its the pooping duck!!  look at its leg...what the poo is it doing lol??

ooo its me and a stick...pretending to fall in the water...WOW I LOVE THAT STICK...but sadly...i droped it in the water. :(

its my england shirt!!! too bad u cant even see it...(mere bear!)

mere bear!!

i love you matt trafford...im gonna miss you my love..mwah.

yay...I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND...

(far right)

....neways....blah i got called into work last night but its all good...MORE MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!

...this weekend is going to kick ass. im not working at all this week!!! i must say that is a first.  FRIDAY im chilling with the sexiest man alive....MR (DO ME IN THE VAGINA) TROY!!!! SATURDAY shopping with becca at the only freakin store that actually carries my size.  SUNDAY i get to chill with my bestfriend...LINUS!!! HOOOORAY!!!  also this is my last day at this SAM thingy so i cant wait to get back at skool.  im sooo excited for spring break.  i was supposed to go to colorado but i dunno if thats gonna be going down because of this stupid shit i got myself into.  i was sooo excited to see andy but its okay theres still summer...

oh yes i almost forgot...everyone check out linus' site to go and see a some scary ass homeless chic lmao. jk sophia...we love you!!!

~teena~